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Hi all, 

Welcome to my blog - a place where you can have your mental health experiences published anonymously and help those similarly affected to get advice from other readers or simply vent about whatever is on your mind.

I started this blog primarily with depression in mind but anyone who is suffering from any kind of mental health issue is welcome to join. 

I will start by talking a bit about my own experiences. I am 29 and I have been battling depression on and off since at least my early twenties, so nearly ten years now if not longer. I have been on fluoxetine for around the last six months, having seen another GP back in the autumn. What prompted me to seek help again was some work related issues. Long story short, I had recently started a new job in a completely different type of role to what I was used to. Frankly, things were not looking good. I was lagging behind my peers due to ongoing issues with my performance at work (despite the extra support I was being given). Just as I thought I was finally making progress, something would make it seem otherwise. With each step forward, I was taking two steps back. 

Needless to say, this was a massive blow to my confidence. Not that I had a lot to begin with. I felt like a complete failure. The idiot who couldn't do anything right. A waste of space. I was not in a good place at all and this was having a knock-on effect on my happiness. I can remember one Sunday in particular when I just felt on edge and I wanted to break down and cry. I was almost ready to give up on life. 

After speaking about my problems online, a kind stranger encouraged me to go back to the GP and seek the help I needed. I had visited my previous GP just months prior and she referred me to phone counselling, but life got in the way and I never went through with it. 

This time, after much reluctance to do so, I decided I wanted to go down the medication route while also considering the other options. That was when I started the fluoxetine and it wasn't too long before I started to notice a difference. To say that my depression is now behind me would be a lie, but going onto medication has certainly helped me to deal with it. There have been some setbacks, namely being left with little choice but to resign from said job in February of this year, but it is something I am continuing to battle. 

I have been trying to take up running, as per my GPs advice, after continually putting it off for a while. However, I must admit I have been slow on the uptake, though that's something I will work on. 

I am now running my own business while also looking for part-time work. It is early days yet but I am making some progress and hope this continues in the future. It would do me a world of good. It isn't always easy to stay positive and keep my chin up but again that is something I must work on.

Anyway, that's all I really have to say right now. I would be interested in hearing from anyone else who is suffering or has suffered from depression and other mental health issues. Feel free to send in your stories and I will get them published for you.

Warmest regards,
Jamie x




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